fantasy

What is the difference between fantasy and visualization? Tonight I'd swear they are one and the same. I read about an elaborate Buddhist tantric visualization and the doubts began to arise: "I could never visualize in such detail!" And yet later as I relaxed and let my mind wander I began fantasizing my partner as Vajrasattva and I as his consort. I imagined a bliss so intense that neither of our personalities remained--only the pure light of awareness, wisdom and compassion perfectly aligned. Before I knew it I had a full-blown visualization in progress. All my years of wearing rose-colored glasses has prepared me to follow a new and promising path and it is happening effortlessly. I have all the tools that I need--others call them "character defects." Why not reframe my violent childhood and ackowledge that the fantasy life that protected me and allowed me to survive with my self-esteem intact also provided me with the perfect training ground. Fantasize my way to enlightment? Why not?

Day One

Uh Oh. How 'd this happen, on line writing. New. Never had an audience before except patient friends. I'll find out if I have anything worthwhile to say or whether it's just more BLAH BLAH BLAH!